Dear Diary…

First things first!

My character in the show isn't the real me! I'm a lot more chilled and I'm not bossy at all. I was given that role cos I guess I was the easiest person to choose - being the oldest, it's more believable. In a stereotypical way, I'm supposed to be much wiser or whatever. In the second series, I'm moulding the part much more to my personality but the first series? Urgh! I hated it! I used to watch it and cringe. It was awful! Thankfully I like my character now.

No regrets

Oh, I've got loads of regrets but I think that's part of growing up. You need to make mistakes to learn - you know, live and learn! At the end of the day, if I didn't have regrets, I wouldn't be where I am today - in S Club. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger!

Wot, no S Club?!

If S Club had never happened, I'd probably be doing what I was doing before - backing dancing. Would I be happy? I guess, but I'd be frustrated. I don't know how long I would have carried on doing that before I developed itchy feet and wanted to take it further. So who knows? If I hadn't ended up in a band, I probably would've gone somewhere else in the entertainment world cos that's the thig that has interested me since I was very young.

Setting the record straight

I think one of the biggest misconceptions about S Club is that we're not talented. Yeah, we have been put together and yeah, it is hard for people to take a pop band seriously - especially a new one. But I think we've got a lot to say and a lot to give and we've all got a lot of soul as well. People will realise that a little bit more when they hear the second album.

S Club heaven!

I often step back and think 'Is this real?' especially during photo shoots. It's all so surreal and it's hard to take in but it's our lives at the moment. I want to start taking photographs to remember everything by. I've got magazine cuttings but they're not the same as snapshots!

In love with LA

I haven't been homesick at all this time; I'm really enjoying it! It would be nice to be back in my flat though cos it's my own space and I can do what I want in it. I miss my family and it would be pretty cool to have my friends Zoe and Louise sitting with me right now. All my friends are quite similar to me in attitude. I don't like shallow people for a start. I'm quite straightforward and I like honest people.

And finally…

Jon always carries his marble egg lucky charm with him wherever he goes. I don't bother with good luck charms.

I prefer to leave things to fate!